distinguish this...

yesterday's events brought up an issue that i've had to face [and possibly you have had to as well] for quite some time now. of course, our parents don't want us to grow up too quickly, but they also want us to grow up. what in the world do they want us to do when they don't treat us by our age?? i'm almost 21 and i STILL have to ask them if i can go out and strike deals with them in order to do so. what do they really expect from us when this happens? it frustrates me that my parents want me to mature, but at the same time they don't respect me by considerably treating me as though i'm 12.

it basically all started out with not having to go to work yesterday and then being invited to disneyland with some friends and then dinner afterwards. plans were set and done, until i got a phone call saying "i don't want you to go out today" etc. i then had to compromise [which is understandable] by saying i'll do this, this and this if you let me go. n response, my mom said ok. i understand that i'm still dependent on them for things and that because they are my parents they are allowed to do this, but i wished i didn't have to be treated like a kid for me to go out and do something.

this all sounds quite selfish of me, but if you knew my parents you might understand. my parents own businesses and one of them is a golden spoon. for this, i am their go-to girl when they need someone to close up shop. of course i have tried my best to stay as far as possible from this line of business, but it always seems to pull me back somehow. i of course, go and close the store for them, but it seems as though they love to ask me to do this when i have plans of some kind. all throughout high school i worked for them on and off and word of advice, don't work for your parents. neopotism can be the lead cause of arguments in a business and family atmosphere, i know from firsthand experience. i never really had a life in high school, i wewnt to school during the week and worked weekends for them during the weekends. it was pretty much my life, it did however give me the firsthand experience i needed for managerial jobs though which i am thankful for. they don't understand that i left the business to find other jobs because i couldn't take it from them anymore. working with them and then having to go home and deal with them gets to be a hinder when you're a growing teenager. they know [or at least should] know by now that i wouldn't do anything against their wishes. i mean i'm not the perfect child, but i know when not to cross boundaries. i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't do drugs. i'm the epitomy of a straight edger. i just wished that they understood and knew that i am all of these things because of them. they are the reason why i don't do things that most people my age go out and do. i've had a heart to heart with my mom about this, but i seriously doubt she understood any of the words coming out of my mouth at the time. well, goes to show the "in one ear, out the other" saying huh?

so that was just my little rant. hopefully when i move into my apt, they'll see that i am old enough to not have to always be there...they've had to deal with it for the past 3 years in college, now they should see that i don't need them at my side ALL the time.